Thoughts, just thoughts

This blog is somewhat selfish and not a brag session of my son, but I felt the need to share some things with those that I love...

Today is an odd day for some reason. Everyone around me at work is in this mundane ho-hum mood and it is affecting me like I don't want it to. I mean, come on now, I am the one who is up every 2 hours with a child to care for. LOL. I just wonder what is in the air today. Then on the other hand, I am thinking of this boy who lies in a hospital bed with a massive brain injury and I pray for him constantly. A friend of mine emailed me earlier this week with at link to caringbridge.com journal for a young man named Thomas Joseph Stanton who lives in Kingwood, Texas. He had a skateboarding accident and has been in a drug induced coma for 10 days. His mother and father are keeping updates on the caringbridge website and I find myself praying for this child and his parents. I am not looking for accolades here at all, I just don't know what draws me to this situation. Could it be that as a mom, I am placing myself in Joseph's mom's shoes? and wondering What would I do in this situation with all of its unknowns. The Stanton's faith is literally unshakable, as evidenced by their story and daily updates. It is such a testimony to me to read of their faith and strength. Now granted, I have been living on the "happy" side of life for SEVERAL months now; however, not forgetting what it takes to get to these happy times of life: trial! I reflect daily on my scars, and how I am to be thankful for everything that I have been blessed with in my life. I really did get everything I have prayed for, and yet it too could be taken away in the blink of an eye. I am not trying to sound so down, I just think about what the Stanton's are going through and I realize that I have a precious miracle gift of a son that I could never let anything happen to. Yet, sometimes these things are out of control, and guess what? When things in life are out of control, guess who is IN CONTROL? The ALMIGHTY SAVIOR! How did I get so lucky as to come to know God in my heart and soul and accept that he is real and taking care of me and my family and friends EVERY step of the way in this life? Through trial, doubt, fear, worry, anger... He is there through it all. My personal mantra is "there is always sunshine after the rain". I am living in my sunshine, but I still thank God every day for the blessings he has poured upon me and how blessed I feel for getting to live this life. I refuse to take it for granted, no matter what "mood" goes on around or in me.

Now, I must admit, I am no saint, I don't read my bible every day, I don't ask forgiveness of my sins every single day, and I curse, and I get angry, and I have a mood swing a couple times a day..but in the end, I try to remember where I come from. I come from a God of love, who will be there despite those things where I fall short.

Lastly, I am plagued by thoughts of another person in need and it is heavy on my heart on a daily basis. I pray for this situation as if it were my own, and I only know that God has a plan for this friend. It may not come in the time wanted, and it may not come in the package dreamed of, but it will come. Friend, I know it is difficult, but let life bloom around you despite this life trial. Yet in the very same breath it is so hard to remember to give it all to Him.

I don't know why the need to have a deep blog, just needed to share some things going on around me. I hope you have heard some inspiration in my blog today.
Love,
T